In Search of a Higher Meaning: What Do You Live For?

As young as nine years old, I had dreamt of leaving the life I was given. In my childish logic, suicide meant playing God and saying, ‘No, I don’t want this life, give me a new one.’ As I played with my lego and dolls after dinner every night, I let the thought of my […]

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Why do people change?

I shouldn’t have felt nervous that day when she told me she was in town. But my heart beat uncontrollably when I saw her text. ‘Let’s meet up,’ she said. ‘When?’ ‘I’ll only be free tomorrow.’ ‘Where?’ ‘Where. That kopitiam we used to go.’ That kopitiam. I hadn’t been there in a long time. The […]

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People say, routines can kill.

Imagine waking up and doing the exact same thing every day for forty years. Same car, same person, same route, same destination, same problems. Just different clothes on different days; an umbrella for rainy days. Good morning. When is the meeting? Ok, sure I’ll get to it. No, it’s not my fault. I’m busy. I’ll […]

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I remember being someone different

“Do you remember who you were before the world told you who you should be?” I hate to admit it, but I don’t feel like myself sometimes when I write. In my mind, there are too many rules about formatting and technique. These rules become like roadblocks, checking to see if I am bringing illegal […]

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